(Do I really looks dikker??I think so....hiksss...)
Finally, the twede kerstdagen here in Soesterberg is all over...!!!I'd spend both days with a hard work in Oriental Swan...till I feel a bit pain at my back, shoulder and hand...but I can not say anything more than that...anyone else work as hard as me...or I can say "harder" than me..also they are all older than me...
Anyway, I am just a trainee here, many thing that I still need to learn, sometimes feel so dull-witted seeing what Mv, Wendy and Wing do...they are "handling" the guest...I can only perform as a helper in here...Even Benthe (partimer) can perform more action than me, some of the reason maybe coz of languange barrier...6 months in NL, and I still find it hard whether to speak or understand Dutch...
One more thing that I keep thinking and staring recently...my photo methamorphosis since this June till December hihihi...sound narsis n a bit crazy, I know...but, yeahhh....I do feel it...I do see it...I do concern about it...but I have no idea how I can solve it...I am getting more and more chubby...oohhh...well ok...some may say, I am getting fatter...hikssss....even though sometimes I still can say that as long as I'm healthy it's no problem...actually, it is a problem...hiksss...I still thanks God for my healtiness, but if I can ask for more...I would like to consider looks thinner...
Oh...I don't know what I have to do...really really dunno...stop eating??don't help much...it will only get worse if finally I get hungry...eat with smaller portion??that was I intend to do but, always after one whole hard working day, I feel very released and give my body a compliment by eating as normal as I am (without minimizing the portion)...God, I'm flustered...!!
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