Saturday, December 27, 2008

appreciate...

Today after work, my boss gave me an amount money as a little gift because I work hard...It's absolutely not because of the money which make me happy, it's all because my boss appreciate my working performance. Well, she's insane if don't (hahaha...!!) but today she's directly say it to me...for this 6 months working in here, even though I still only perform as a helper, but I can say that I do it better than my partner...about working, about time, about character...and finally, today I get that appreciation...feel so released... :)

All that I do, all that I can tolerate, is because I always think in my boss position. I never want to be a person or a worker that only know how to demand...I want to give...even though I don't have much to give...I want to help...even though I don't have much ability to help either...

hemmm...that's all...that's my feeling today....

Friday, December 26, 2008

fiuhhh....(short note before I go to sleep)



(Do I really looks dikker??I think so....hiksss...)


Finally, the twede kerstdagen here in Soesterberg is all over...!!!I'd spend both days with a hard work in Oriental Swan...till I feel a bit pain at my back, shoulder and hand...but I can not say anything more than that...anyone else work as hard as me...or I can say "harder" than me..also they are all older than me...

Anyway, I am just a trainee here, many thing that I still need to learn, sometimes feel so dull-witted seeing what Mv, Wendy and Wing do...they are "handling" the guest...I can only perform as a helper in here...Even Benthe (partimer) can perform more action than me, some of the reason maybe coz of languange barrier...6 months in NL, and I still find it hard whether to speak or understand Dutch...

One more thing that I keep thinking and staring recently...my photo methamorphosis since this June till December hihihi...sound narsis n a bit crazy, I know...but, yeahhh....I do feel it...I do see it...I do concern about it...but I have no idea how I can solve it...I am getting more and more chubby...oohhh...well ok...some may say, I am getting fatter...hikssss....even though sometimes I still can say that as long as I'm healthy it's no problem...actually, it is a problem...hiksss...I still thanks God for my healtiness, but if I can ask for more...I would like to consider looks thinner...

Oh...I don't know what I have to do...really really dunno...stop eating??don't help much...it will only get worse if finally I get hungry...eat with smaller portion??that was I intend to do but, always after one whole hard working day, I feel very released and give my body a compliment by eating as normal as I am (without minimizing the portion)...God, I'm flustered...!!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

1st x'mas in NL

never wish or tough my 1st x'mas outside my land will be like this...ever...
it was nothing...absolutely an ordinary day, without friends, without family, without church..
this last point, really2 make me feel like a sinner, actually there is a x'mas service at the church near here, but...I wake up too late for that...some of my friends maybe sad because they can not go to the church too, but it is because there is no church around their apartment nor they have to go for work already, but me??I have everything to go, the church itself, time, everything...but I just too late for that...I dunno why I become like this...even though I went to bed at a normal hour (12-01) but I just can not wake up early (the service was at 10 am)...

Also yesterday, I'm mad with my work partner, coz he was to selfish n blaming me without consider himself...anyway, he already apologize to me...and I don't want to really talk about it..whatever...since the very beginning, I just know that he is kind of person like that..yesterday maybe just a peak of everything after 6 months I getting around with him...whatever...

anyway, everything is miserable...T_T

today...

Hari ini agak BT ..
coz, u know why, aku kepingin stay di nl 26 januari 2008, for enjoy chinese new year, totally for my self n my friends. that's way i refuse to join the catering in belgie...
but u know, almost all of my friends go for that "not at the right time" catering...
i was so HUHHH...."ce me yekk" why they allemal become sooo workaholic??
anyway, i don't know for sure now, what i will do in 26 januari...even my workpartner here in Soesterberg, mikha, also go for belgie...ohhh godd....just hope that i can enjoy this chinese new year happily...don't know with who...hikshiksss.....